Hello people. So, I just confessed about the hardships of breaking up. I mean, we all go through it. We have all dealt with break-ups and some are easier than others. So, after the break-up, there's a whole new can of warms to deal with.
After adjusting to sleeping alone every night, after losing my dependency on my ex, after all the tears shed, what is next? I will tell you what is next. Living your damn life. Making hard decisions. Doing things you wouldn't ordinarily do. And that is exactly what I did. I took steps in directions that I never did before. I took leaps of faith and hoped for a positive outcome. I couldnt be afraid of any and everything anymore. I was alone and had to learn to adjust to my independence. I started getting on the computer more, putting myself out there more, talking to strangers (oh my), and meeting new people. I applied for school, I stopped emotional eating, and I took risks. I felt like, what the fuck did I have to lose?
I did not want to even think about meeting other women or getting into a new relationship. I was more interested in making new friends. Especially since I pushed all my real friends away, while I was in that toxic relationship. I was interested in meeting people/women with similar interest. I was interested in going back to school for my Masters. I was thinking about doing positive things for myself. Because in that last relationship, I was more worried about taking care of my girl than taking care of me. I was more concerned that she was happy and content and had everything she needed and wanted. My wants and needs and desires and goals, all took a back seat to that relationship. So now, it was time for me to start to remember that I had once set goals for myself.
So, after the break up comes a bit of freedom. I was free to come, go, stay, and do whatever the hell I wanted to do. I didnt have to consider anyone else. I didnt have to worry about my exes schedule and if I should be picking her up soon. This new found freedom was kind of fun and exciting; Its even better when you know what to do with it.
I was free to admire other women without feeling any guilt. I was free to talk on the phone to whoever I wanted. I was free to make plans and not feel guilty for them. I was free to come and go as I damn well pleased. It was nice. And I recommend that anyone dealing with a break enjoy your new found freedom.